Hubby left this morning for his 2-3 week out of town project. He's been working so hard the last few months. He's been on a lot of business trips and has had to work late nights, especially the last few weeks. As a result he has not seen the kids as much as he would like to see them. It's been hard on me and the kids, too.
We spent this past weekend spending as much family time as we could in a 72-hour time span. Fortunately, Hubby was able to spend some time with the kiddos this morning before he left. They enjoyed seeing him. When Buggy woke up, she walked in my room where I was folding laundry and asked, "Where's Daddy?" I told her he was downstairs and she flew out of the room, yelling, "Daddy!" Hubby was already half way up the stairs when they met. I wish I had my camera because the next scene was adorable. Hubby was a few steps down from Bug and she leaned in to give him a hug. They were eye-to-eye and in that hug so much was said. I could see Hubby close his eyes as he held his little girl and it was if he was savoring this moment and Buggy was holding on as tight as she could as if to say, "I'm safe and I don't want you to go."
Hubby helped with breakfast and getting the kids to change their clothes for the morning. We finished our usual routines really early and we had a few extra minutes to pray over Daddy. We prayed, we sang, we got one more kiss and hug.
When Daddy's car pulled away, Boogs collapsed onto the grass and Buggy fell apart. She was trying to put on mittens, but they didn't go on the way she wanted and she lost it and begged for her blanket. As I put the baby in the stroller for our walk to school, Bugs went upstairs to grab her lovies. She came back with a blanket and two stuffed animals. She would have grabbed more, but this is all her little arms could carry. She asked to bring them on our walk and she sat in the stroller all the way to school and on the way back. Before Boogie went into his school, he gave each of us a kiss. He usually fusses about having to give his sister a kiss, but I think he knew how much it would mean to her and I think he needed it, too. We all need to feel a little more connected to one another as we figure out how to function as a family of four for a few weeks.
At one point, Bug looked at me and said, "I miss Daddy. I wish he didn't have to go to work." Me, too, Baby. Me, too.
I read the following verse during my quiet time this morning:
The LORD is my rock, my fortress and my deliverer; my God is my rock, in whom I take refuge. He is my shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold.
It came at the right time. I'm missing my husband. Please forgive me if I don't answer phone calls, e-mails, or messages. I'm doing all that I can to keep things humming along and I have so much that I'm doing that I just.can't.do.one.more.thing. I'd like to think I was stronger, but I'm not. It takes all my energy to make sure that things continue to go smoothly while Hubby is away, to the point of exhaustion.
If you think of it, please say a prayer for me that I may have patience, grace, and energy when I interact with my children. They're hurting right now as they miss their daddy. Please pray for my children and for my husband that he may have safe travels and comes home to us safely. Thank you.